Trans*Talk 1

Maximus Hunter says "I want to know when you found out when you were you?"


- I started really figuring it out in 10th grade (I was 15 at the time) I mean, i always knew some of it, like how it made me happy when people "mistook" my for a boy, and how being called/considered a girl really upset me. But it didn't make any sense until I really  started learning about what it was. I came to terms with being FtM pretty quickly, it made sense and it made me feel better. It wasn't until this year, though, that i figured out exactly where under the transgender umbrella i stood; transsexual. This i found out through friends actually. It's because of questions they asked as they tried to understand it more that I understood it more.


- Hmm well I've always know cause it was always more than just being a tomboy I always wanted to be a guy but I also had moments where I was a girl but I found out about transgender like five years ago but knew it didn't really fit then about three years ago I found the term bigender and it fit but I didn't accept it till about two years ago


- I felt something was different about me ever sense I was 10 years old, well even younger then that. But I started thinking about it at 10. Played with my sister's toys and my taste in TV very rarely hit the boyish side. Over time, it became harder and harder to do guyish things, it rarely/never felt right. At 18, i just said "screw it, no other way to put this, I'm a woman on the inside." I'll hide it, go through college, and start transitioning when I finish college and can pay for everything. Year by year it became harder to wait. Last you around the start of fall, I couldn't hold it anymore, I had to do something about myself. Found help in my area, got to know who loved me for who I am, and, over all started looking for a way for me to become me. And here I am now, just starting this new journey


- I have always been me


- For me, this is a hard question, because I had to go through different stages and try different identities (if you will) to discover who I am. That being said, we are all constantly growing and evolving, but that's not what you were asking exactly.
Another proviso is that I am not transsexual - I am androgynous/third-gender etc. But i knew something about me was different around age 12. (Looking back, i see they were signs of my budding self even as a young child.) At first, I only thought i was bi at age 12-13. And then (an androgynous) gay around 13-14. Then transgendered at age 15-16. AND then androgynous at age 17-18. Sadly, all the changing resulted in confusion for myself and others, but whatever - it's my duty to myself to find who I am.


- When i was 19, technically. On a subconscious level I always knew but never had the words to express it or understand it. At the tail end of my senior year of high school my best friend, and at that time, soon to be lover expressed the desire to become a guy. I was thrilled because I always saw them that way and was attracted to them as such. It got me thinking though, so I started do some research. I was amazed at what I learned. I finally had the words and understanding for what I'd known all along.